.Wednesday, December 8, 2010 ' 10:58 AM Y
Dear Diary,
i havent updated my bloggie for hmmm, 3 weeks? HAH! been having emotional ups and downs. feeling a little shagged? yes.. somehow, hopefully, i hope this effort is worth it. i am waiting for tuition assignments and since Shukri is back from Aussie, i guess i'll be meeting up with him to discuss abt the kendarat venture.
on another note, i miss all of these. the sweet-nothing msgs and random calls and letters from the bf. oh, i rarely get them nowadays. maybe because he's tired? oh wells, i have to admit, i try hard to convince myself that the reason why he's behaving this way and that is because he is just PURELY tired. bt no, it just doesn't want to sink into my stubborn head! pfft!
and what happen to this? when i needed someone? haishhh.. how pampered and dependent can i be on the bf right?
but still,
bf dear and im always constantly thinking of you.every moment and second that im living my life. i just want you to knw that im always insecure when you are not with me. maybe the effect of everyday meeting during our honeymoon period has led me to be like this? idk. bt one thing is for sure, i want all these tears to stop too. i havent cried for any guys so many times AT ALL! and im always crying because i want you to constantly be by my side. im not sure if its suffocating for you bt it definitely is suffocating for me to be this way. i want everything to be legal quickly so all these torture of not having you by side will just end. trust me! this is worse than dating an NS guy. its like, you're there bt you cant be there with me. get that feeling?
anyways, ytd's dinner date was awesome. the only difference was that we were not gossiping with our uniforms! HAH! and atikah and elly and rizal and rudin wasn't there.. =.= oh wells, picnic soon??? i want the beach pweety plssss.. ^^ so after the dinner and our usual moments of kecohness at Causeway Point MacD, we headed home since we have school and work todayyy. bt moments with them are always fun. despite the arguments onthespot =.= bt that's the thing! it spices up our friendship. so Atikahh, join us for next gathering okayyy... make time for us!
on another note, i miss all of these. the sweet-nothing msgs and random calls and letters from the bf. oh, i rarely get them nowadays. maybe because he's tired? oh wells, i have to admit, i try hard to convince myself that the reason why he's behaving this way and that is because he is just PURELY tired. bt no, it just doesn't want to sink into my stubborn head! pfft!
and what happen to this? when i needed someone? haishhh.. how pampered and dependent can i be on the bf right?
but still,
bf dear and im always constantly thinking of you.every moment and second that im living my life. i just want you to knw that im always insecure when you are not with me. maybe the effect of everyday meeting during our honeymoon period has led me to be like this? idk. bt one thing is for sure, i want all these tears to stop too. i havent cried for any guys so many times AT ALL! and im always crying because i want you to constantly be by my side. im not sure if its suffocating for you bt it definitely is suffocating for me to be this way. i want everything to be legal quickly so all these torture of not having you by side will just end. trust me! this is worse than dating an NS guy. its like, you're there bt you cant be there with me. get that feeling?
anyways, ytd's dinner date was awesome. the only difference was that we were not gossiping with our uniforms! HAH! and atikah and elly and rizal and rudin wasn't there.. =.= oh wells, picnic soon??? i want the beach pweety plssss.. ^^ so after the dinner and our usual moments of kecohness at Causeway Point MacD, we headed home since we have school and work todayyy. bt moments with them are always fun. despite the arguments onthespot =.= bt that's the thing! it spices up our friendship. so Atikahh, join us for next gathering okayyy... make time for us!
huhu! body aches are gradually decreasing yes! went for the Standard Chartered Marathon.. completed it in 1h 44 mins 30 secs! GOSH am i proud of myself for achieving that timing. all pretty thanks to Jeannette♥ for being my main source of motivation. and not forgetting limjingyi♥ too. ^^ i cant wait to run my sundown adidas with Jeannette (my confirmed running partner) and run and hold hands until the finishing line! HAHAHAH!
anyways, i guess that is all for now. will update when i have the time! for now, i cant wait for my KL trip to have a short getaway from here. and dear bf, i miss you loads! can you start chasing me again? lettersssssss.. please come to me with lots of love from the bf okayyy.. :)