Dear Diary,

to dear you,

i wanna thank you for taking care of me these whole time that im unwell.

i wanna thank you for sending and fetching me to work because you worry abt me too much.

i wanna thank you for all those love and concern you showered upon me in this short period.

i wanna thank you for giving me hopes, hopes on love and health.

and most importantly, i wanna thank you for loving me and for ignoring my dark past.

thank you, ♥muhammad soadiq♥

im sorry that in our early stages of dating, you have to date the sickly me.

its been only a week and you've done so much.

i knw you are tired despite work but you still bothered to send me to work and fetch me so i wouldn have to take the bus and suffer inside it. im sure i must have been the first sickly girl that you've ever gone out with. im sorry i let you worry too much abt my health and abt me. no words can express how fortunate i am to be with you. i cant thank god enough for bringing you to me, especially on my most sickly moments in my life. and its just so clear that i knw you are able to take care of me in the future too. insyaallah, we will go far because no other guy care for me as much as you and no other guy will do as much as you do to make sure i am well.

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and to Achip, im sorry if after all these while, i gave you false hope. im sure you'll find a better girl out there. i knw you said you will nvr leave me bt time and again, it is me who left you. i dun wan to keep you hanging any longer. i apologise if it is me who took your heart away and broke it into pieces. all those times that i left, it was pretty obvious that i am not for you and neither are you for me. SHE is better. and even if you say that she is tgt with someone, i think as a girl, i shud know hw she feels abt you. If she doesn't have feelings for you, she wouldn't have cared so much. im sorry if i've hurt you deeply. but i know that you know, since a long time ago, there can never be us because of our differences. we are too different and we are too stubborn to change. yes you said u changed bt no, i couldn see it. it could either be you didn change at all or i was too egoistic to notice it. either way, i think you shud know that we are over. please wake up and see who is the girl who is always there for you. it is HER, nt me. give yourself and her a chance. and you take care too.

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anyways, i've been sick since forever. actuali since last wed :( been coughing and coughing non-stop. the blood and the chest pain and the green colour phlegms. (syikin is gonna scold me for this :P ) i couldn even concentrate on my work properly on monday because of the nvr ending cough and constant feeling of vomiting. at times, i really wanted to break fast early because it was simply too much to bear. and i decided that i shud just go to the doctor again because the ♥ got too worried abt the blood thingy.

and hell yeah, i gt 2 days mc from work. but poor hartini ♥ was too busy at work. i hope she is okay at work. oh, i wanna thank her and farouq too because they helped alot when i was sick at work. hartini is like the sweetest gf i ever have because she's like a sister, a mentor and a gf. and yeah, she keeps telling me how i shud go home and rest and if i cant answer calls, just pass the phone to her when she knows that she cannot cope with the workload. dear Allah, please make sure she is well and recovers from her illness soon. and farouq, i have to admit he is an irritant but he never fails to make me smile at work. an irritant because his perfume makes me cough and cough and how he even had to change his perfume just so i wouldn vomit at work because of the throat thingy. and he also helped in my admin work. but he's leaving soon. oh well.. people come and go and that is life.

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i shall head off to bed for some rest because im still feeling giddy.
:(((

take care.