Dear Diary,

ytd's and this morning's confession moments with the exbf brought me back to reality.. and love,i told you this before... working will only make me run away from reality.. usually,i could do it but no,when it is abt u,nothing works... idk if u feel the same way as i do,love...but its just hard to not have u ard.. all the trouble shits that im gg thru now,and all that u are gg thru now.. what exactly is God trying to show us? why is it that i still wan to be with you, thru the ups and downs and whatever.. why is it just you that i wanna do my everything with?? i miss you.. i reali do.. and seriously,i do not know if i've reali moved on... cos in actual fact,im just running away.. and running away means i do not knw if i still love you or not.. :/ im just as confused as you are love... and i mean what i say,i reali hope we are strong without each other..

reading the gf's blog made me think abt life.. hw i used to visit nenek at the hospital last last year and always sleeping over to keep her company at night.. and return home the next morning only to go back to the hospital and do the daily routines there... Nenek happens to be the last grandparent i have living and i would do anything just so she's well... which reminds me of those times when i was still with hazmilbaby.. that week when he decided to quit smoking,hw i couldn do anything and just be there thru the phone cos he didn let me visit him nor fetch him from sch because of A levels. :/ and the late aunt who passed away from ?? cancer... and to have the babylove admitted to the pet hotel cos he was having stomach problems.. i truly know hw u feel gf... and i pray both of them are safe,insyaallah... continue praying hard for them okaysss?? hopefully,they'll get well soon ;)

i got a confirmed tuition from kak mai!! and i is excited to starttt!! :) every wed and sat... aiyaiyai..

he still loves me,he loves me not. he still loves me,he loves me not. he still loves me,he loves me not. he still loves me,he loves me not. will he tell me any sooner??? i wanna know so that i can get myself out of this mess that i got myself into. i miss you so.. do u feel the same way??

oh wells,tmr is doomsday when it comes to meeting grumpy customers! and stupid fuckers too... who simply just do not knw my job scope and think that they are multi talented that they can do everything! FUCK YOU,old man! im gg to treat you as mr invisible FUCK!

i hate it when i cant stand up for myself. and seriously, ppl who holds the principle that customers are always right are DUMBFUCKS! customers are not God,not even the Prophet... some people are just arseholes to begin with just because they think that they are of a higher status but fuck ppl who think that way.. because when u look down on people,ppl look down on you. because obviously,you are not treating ppl the right way and boo! i can do it to you too,rich or not! cos i knw,not all rich people deserves to be respected! it all points down to integrity and having fucking good manners!