.Friday, February 26, 2010 ' 8:04 PM Y
Dear Diary,
tags replied!
:pig, hahahas.. just do it! 
: jfook, 
thank you :)
thank you :) DaHLia, huhu,ok 
:mr zam, ok sure will
:ira, hahaha, i am waiting for a new laptop so i can upload the pictures easily. so for nw, hv to make do with this pic heeeee...
heeeee...:jing, yupyup.. my schedule is beginning to be packed when i find a new job soon.. your this BGB is gg to be career-minded and may be gg back to studies :)
:fadli, heh.. ok :)
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hakhikhuk! today happens to be the last day i'll be seeing asyik :( but oh wells, at least i managed to do my usual waiting for him *winkwink winkwink* today so i wont miss it so much :))) and apparently,that boy is always in cahoots with the cisco uncle to tease me!! hmmmph! so meeeeaaannn tau satu satu... grrr!!
me: cik,dier dah dtg :)))
uncle: hmmmm... (and look at asyik's direction)
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uncle to asyik: dari tadi tau dier tunggu
asyik: (smile smile ;)))) ), i cant rmb what he say
kakak&christine: today her last day lei..
asyik to kakak: kak,jage dier eh.. takut nanti dier nangis..
me: ASYIK!! that is so tk perlu sia...
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uncle to me: nampak happy jek..
me: ape dier cik?? sape yg happy??
uncle points to me,
me, takdeluh.. mcm biase jek.. heeheee :)))
asyik: (smile onlyyyy... -.- )
satu2 suke sgt ehk kacau aishah!! aiyaiyaiiii... oh wells, last day with asyik..
rena: eh,ur korean bf come alrd arh?
me: what korean bf??
rena: aiyahh,the one you talk to just now luh..
me: huhhhh??? ohhh,you mean the transnational guyyyy... noluh,that one close friend only leiii.. why arh you say he my bf?
rena: hahaha.. noluh.. cos i see you,evertime he come,u look so happy.... that's why i say he ur bf..
me: HUH??????! no luhhhh... hahahahs.. me and him close only luh :))
lil : LOVE IS BLIND!! ( this is so not needed pls!! ) hahahhas..
me: hahhahas.. nix also call him my bf..
nix: :)
super embarrassing moments have been happening to me this few dayssss... i feel super duper malu for my kentalness cansssssss!?!??!
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aahhahs... dah tu aishah sedih sendiri!!! LOL :P
ytd while checking the vouchers, i was listening to the radio... and paparazzi was on.. since it used to be my favourite song,i knew the lyrics so yeah,as usual, i sang it :) and since my room was more enclosed even though it didn have any door, only the cupboards,desktop and blablabla (whatever an office shud have :), cheyyy,aishah duduk dlm office tauuu.. padehal,baru temp.. heehee..! ), i thought nobody can hear cos for the past one week plus,i have been sitting there,diligently doing my work which is a lot of checking until i can fall asleeeeeeeppp! and no one was complaining abt my singing being loud.. but but but,apparently,i blew it ytd with LG paparazzi song!!! until baey and HC came into my room to tell me to stop singing cos there was still some customers outside my room.. and i was like WHAT??!??!?! YOU GUYS CAN HEAR ME SING FROM YOUR ROOM???!?!?! OMG!!!! SO EMBARRASSING!!!! so i decided to stop singing but couldn resist myself yet again,so i sang and listened to one earpiece so at least,i can monitor my voice!! heeheee....
boss: wahhh, i heard someone sing loudly today
me: WHAT?!?!?! HW U KNW?!?!?! OMG!!!
HC: LOL!... you sing so loud. i was talking to customer then i heard someone singing. i thought it was the radio.. but suddenly become louder and louder.. so i think must be the xiaomei. that's why i go your room.. haahhahahs..
me: OMG!!!! so embarrassing luhhhh.... aiyahhhh..
HC: then still gt customers outside.. i look at him and he smile smile..
me: WHATTTT??!?!? got customers??? aiyahhhh..... i dun wan come work alrd luh tmrrrr!!!
boss: hahha.. u dun wan come work tmr? means i can play the video playback! show it to everyone then they can see you sing. hahahhahas.. summor u nt coming for the lo-hey and pizza thingy tonight right.. hahahs... means i can show them the video tonight.
me: ehhhhh, cannot ly tt!!! u cannot watch without me....
:(((( hahahhahas.. so mean right my boss!?!? but yeah,he was just teasing.. thank god :)) and he was asking if i wanted to work full time there.. and i was like errrr.... can arh :)) so i gave him my number and is hoping hard that i get a position at the bank ;)
so after eating a slice of pizza,since they asked me to open first cos i had to leave before them for dance and blablabla, i rushed down to serangoon mrt to meet the gf. changed at the toilet at bk and headed down to mac and saw hariz, ayu,nana and cikgu.. they went off first while we waited for sulala.. since i alrd ate the pizza,i ordered the fries cos i sure do not want to eat until full cos the toilet tissue there is DAMN PATHETIC!! kan fizah kan? hahahahahahs.. so yeah,su reached and chitchatchitchat and ...
me: harap2 hari nie cikgu ajar sey zapin hiphop.. aku suker yg.... (i did the head action! only su and fizah knows *winkwink winkwink* heee )
and i saw this guy who was heading my way smiling at me. EMBARRASSING!!!!! and he keeps gg to and fro which is very irritating cos firstly,he was teasing an old woman who was waiting for someone in front of the toilet(which i think is super mean i feel like punching his cute-but-fuckyou-i-dun-care-if you'recuteornot-face!) and secondly,i definitely couldn face him at all since he saw my head action... :P malu peopleeeee.. super maluu.. so i suggested that su ate her fries quickly too cos i couldn stand the embarrassment anymore.... but he came yet again to look at our shirts,probably wondering where we were from.. sorryluh boy! we dun live anywhere near BK! :P and i was getting real scared alrd and we quickly rushed out of mac,always looking behind.. keeping a lookout and apparently,he was out to chase us.. being the kental me,of cos i ran tooo.. scary can??? but embarrassing too...want to go home oso scared!! aiyaiayaiii!! su said he was from ITE.. bahhh!! now i feel segan with them more than everrr... aiyaiyaiiiii... and you,thank you for the concern u showed to make sure i was home safely... sweets ;)
dance training was ok.. but i wasn used to learning alot of steps at one time. made new friends yet again. and hell yeah, the girls seniors are reali pretty,though some are younger than me.. heeee :P there's ayu,elly,nana,hana,liyana,haikel and hariz.... *winkwink winkwink* and cikgu said that we have to learn more dance songs cos there'll be an upcoming performance soon but i is not sure when... aiyahh.. seramnyeeee... baru masuk jek dah ade performance!!! aiyaiyaiii... btu oh wells, that means i can invite the soon-to-be ex colleagues to watch me dance *winkwink winkwink* ( i seriously hope i get to work with them again and this time,full time.. which means i have to go home later than usual, 7 plus or maybe 8 plus.. ) totally no life! but nahh,i dun care... at least,i dun have to think abt matters of the heart righttt? and i can see my main motivator at work :) even though its for a few moments only *winkwink* ...
ahhh,k dah... later u people read,say like reading novel. baahahahahhahas.. so meeeeeannnnn :P but oh wells, by reading this entry,u will knw more abt my kentalness!! hakhikhuk!!!!
PS: i is changing my blog url sooooonnn *winkwink winkwink* .... so yeah. take note okayss... and i think im a changed person?? :((( not in terms of personality but i intend to focus more on my work and future studies and tuition and dance.. i may have no time to have bf :)) but yeah,i think that shud be good for me.... im just not ready to be in a relationship yet.
i think i have been mean for the past few weeks.. i've been so tired and busy after work and tuition that i think i neglected a lot of my friends... i havent been contacting pig,unless i see him online... there's akmal,the primary sch gfs,the sec sch gfs, teeeraaaa!!!, bff!!, ns man, an and manymany more.. i barely have time to msg them and when they msg me,i forgot to reply... and ns man have been complaining that i always nvr reply to his msgs.. baaaahhh!! sorrryyyyy guys and babesssss....... but hell yeah,i miss you people a hell lot!! muah muah muah!!! ;) meet up soon okayssss...
lovelove... assalamualaikum
to you,im sorry i have to make this decision. u have suffered and sacrificed a lot. and i didn mean to waste it.. and memories with you i'll keep and not throw them away cos i found another guy who is willing to love my weakness and strengths and who is sincere to love me the way you do.. i cant thank you enough for the love u have showered upon me.. thank you for pampering and all those treats and always coming down to my place because i is just plain lazy and tired to go far everytime we meet.. we'll remain friends if you want.. and like i said,if u wan to hate me,just hate me cos i knw i hurt you alot.. you even said that it hurts to love me.. that makes me more guilty than ever. for all the times we spent tgt,i thank you for lending me your shoulder to let those tears flow and the many memories we share even though its for a short while.. im sorry that im so complicated and confused when it comes to love now.. i wan you to be happy and not hurt anymore.. and since u didn msg me today at all,i guessed you dun wan to be friends with me.. i understand and i dun hate you for that..but yeah,i just hope u understand things frm my view and me.. i havent open myself up to you yet so you may not knw what is inside of me and what type of person i reali am. the exbf used to talk to me abt hw to set my priorities straight.. and i tell you my priorities now.. firstly,i prioritised my family and work,including tuition and babylove.. secondly,i prioritise my dance.. then bf, then friends.....sometimes,friends then bf.. i knw not many people will like this type of setting but this is me.. so pls understand.. this is my life and i wan to determine what life im living.. im sorry that im a stubborn girl :( but i definitely hope that you re strong,dear love.. i knw u are.. and i wan you to knw tat i'll still be here,though not most of the time.. :)