.Monday, February 1, 2010 ' 10:04 PM Y
Dear Diary,
im confused!
why is it that God makes love such a confusing and complicated thing?
why does He makes it so difficult for us to handle?
why is LOVE not as easy as when a man falls in love with a woman means they are meant to be together?? whyyyyy :(((((
i knw i've moved on..i alrd have decided on that before i started work.. after that last msn conversation we had when i told him hw i feel like i've lost my direction blablabla.... but today made me more confused than ever.. and surprisingly,i teared...after a whole week of not tearing.. i decided to just let those tears flow before wiping them away.. i think i was simply just too busy on work and when i get home,i was just too tired to think of anything that i simply forgot to think abt the exbf.. i forgot to think abt hazmil! :((( mayb i did think of him for a few mins last week but its not everyday :(( hw mean can i be rightt?? and i teared cos i realised i miss him.. im a confused girl! as simple as that where no one can even help.. they say time tell everything but hw come i still dunno anything yet?? :(( oh wells, i shall just heed akmal's advice and not think of the exbf so much.
met MrZ cum Ridzuan at compass point at 6 ytd.. man! that guy said he was gg to reach before 430. in the end,he reached at 530.. so i decided to purposely reach late.. and i reached at 6! :) how nice is the vengeance :) REPAID! decided to drop by popular before gg to the singtel shop... LG LOLLIPOP is NICE cannnnnn?? but its thinner than my current lg phone :/
headed to mac to buy dinner before walking off to the park near anchorvale cc. and apparently,it was kite-flying day and we both saw many many many beautiful kites :) it was an amazing sight.. had our dinner and chitchatchitchat before heading home at 9. and Z,im sorry if i was rude the whole of ytd.. esp when it came to the topic abt exbf.. :/ to tell you straight to ur face that u were annoying when u keep proposing to me,i knew that u were a lil bit hurt inside but u didn wanna show it because it was a cheerful conversation.. but yeah,spending time with u is fun :) because u dun scold me when i scold u vulgarities :)but oh wells, i hope u will quickly find a gf soon so i dun need to keep reporting to u when i wake up and when i sleep and stuff.. u are not my BF! :) but a very nice friend.. thank you very much for the treat and the fun date ytd :)
and today,because it was a busy day and moreover, the first day of the month,the bank was unusually busy on a monday.. and im tired.. and definitely,didn expect MrCrush to come earlier than expected! ;) at 2 plus i think.. and he keeps on smilingggggggggggggg... and i keep looking away cos yes,excited babyyy!!! his smile is sweet cannnn?? aishah mentellllls!! :P and he came again at 5 and asked for my help since i was still there and couldn leave the bank with the officers still attending to the leftover customers -.- so yeah,looked out,saw that he reached and immediately started laughing.. its the same routine everyday that i have to help him at 5! -.- and i almost dashed out after he finished his task upstairs just so i could ask his name ;) but no,i didn do it.. hahas... kakak was still there and i'd be super shy and wont knw what to answer if she ask me why i dashed out.. but yes,i'll ask tmr! ;) i dun care... rather than call him mr crush -.-
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
- akmal's email.. hahas..
thank you akmal and hidir for listening to my rants todayyy.. hidir! lepak soon cheebs! i havent lepak with you and sepak terajang ur 'pole' body.. huakk!! and akmal,yes! wait for ur freeeee day which is godknowswhennnnn -.- oh wells,meeting nadiah sooonnnn :)
i miss my babes cann?!?! the pri sch gfs,the sec sch gfs! :/ kbye.. i need to go tdo :) nightsss...
PS: kambenggg!!! take care of yourself yooo!! misses!! ;)