.Thursday, January 21, 2010 ' 9:18 PM Y
Dear Diary,
ugh! today is annoying! besides having to wait super long for the briefing and too many things regarding some boys totally pissed me off!
and im still pissed now.... like fucking pissed! its not one,its not 2, but 3 boys! who cares if he's older or not!
thank you pig for being there. huhuuu.. intended to cry alone but i super needed someone. huhu.. so thank you :)
daddy said the lappy is CONDEMNED! fully condemned! sheeshh!! i gt all the chat logs inside! and they are super important plssss!! my past chats with the exbf is inside! :(((( but oh wells, maybe God is hinting that i shud forget him.. huhuuu.. moving on! work starts next monday. and its -.- ... nt tt im nt grateful bt :/ oh wells, live with it aishah! u super need to occupy ur time and not spend it crying all day because of the memories you have.
im dying to lepak at vivo! godknowswhy! kbye..
i has no mood to blog today.. enough of tears for these 2 days! FML (hakim taught me this! )
and for god's sake, i teared again today after tearing ytd! hw slutty can life get for me righttt?? oh wells,i hope something bright awaits me soon.. i wanna be AISHAH! and not some cheeb girl who cries over her exbf for more than a month! and oh,i've nvr been like this before... sheesh!!! what love am i feeling???
and you,i still feel lost! i dunno what ur thinking anymore and i think i dun wan to knw anymore. im losing faith cos i've been doing this saving-our-relationship all by myself. i dun feel like falling in love anymore.
PS: thanks quanyuan for making things better :))) i seriously need a bitching therapy! i havent had one in ages! oh oh,besides bitching,i need a scold-vulgarities-all-day therapy too.. i think i've swallowed too much anger for the past weeks that i seriously need to vomit it all out!
shud i go to greenridge to see the boys? but im pissed with one of them!!! grrr.. i need to scold vulgarities! sheessshhh.. k bye,for real!