.Friday, January 15, 2010 ' 5:48 PM Y
Dear Diary,
i need to revamp my BLOG!
i need to upload the pictures!!!
i need to change skin!
i need to edit links!
i need to get a license!! and daddy is fickle abt me getting a bike license..
skjp can,skjp cannot!! :( if HE was here,he'd tell me wat to do.. mayb HE would stop me and take the bike license for me... i super need HE!!
im gonna start work in a bank real soon :) excited!! but hopefully,no need to wear make up :/ i reali dun like wearing them!
im gonna start tutoring this one p4 kid. english maths science! can i change science to malay? my science sucks reali bad!! oh wells,i shall buy the textbook and study!! hahas.. anyone keen to help me?? :P someone who was the top student for his O levels in biology?? :( ughh!! i super miss him badly!
oh oh, and i am joining cikgu yazid's dance group.. training is every thursday.. when it will start? idk.
oh oh,and i is gatal to join a kendarat company!! :( hopefully,they'll call me up :) and i'll be working with another girl :)
huhuuuu!! and im contemplating if i shud study part time and work :/ i doubt i can get into uni.
huhuuu!! estimate schedule ehhh
monday- friday (8-5): i'll be working
sat (8-12?): working half-day
sun:kendarat maybe?
??? :tuition
thursday : 730- 9 at kallang cc
huhu!! and no,valentine's day dates!! i nvr forget our date! :)))) val's day is on sun so im free,hopefully :/
:((( im sorry if i made myself busy. its the only way to not think of you so much bt i knw deep down,i'll definitely miss you super much,love... u used to tell me that after i finish my A levels,u hope i have time for you even though u may nt be my first priority but hopefully not the last.. i rmb these,baby... i remembered every little things that u said and do cos in all of that,i see ur deep love for me. but after i finish my exams,look at where we are now.. if only u'd come back to be with me.. and even if ur wont, u are and will always be my priority,love... and nvr will u be the last one because ur more important than other stuffs. nag at me if u want.scold me for being silly for doing all these....i missed being nagged by you :( but this is all that i can do to forget you..i reali wished you still have feelings for me,love.. i reali wish.. because nth else in this world matters except for ur love. i miss you badly :((( real badly but i have no one to tell to cos they may not understand my love for you. they may say bad stuffs abt you but trust me,baby... those words nvr got into my head because i knw u. our short time together was always spent meaningfully and every meetups,webcamming and chats at msn, msgs and conversations on the phone and everything brings us closer together and they gave me a chance to know who u are. to me,its nt hw long i was with you but wat was more important was how true and deep our love for each other was. ur love for me surpassed ur love for someone who u were with for a yr plus. and my love for you surpassed my love for someone who used to be my best friend and still is and a few other special ones who used to be king of my heart. but nw i knw i wan u to be the keyholder to my heart. i mean it,love... only u have the key,no one else..i pray hard that ur heart will open to rekindle this love.this love that u accepted and reluctantly threw away for godknowswhat reason.this love that i know will stay for a lifetime.this love that requires so much of our sacrifices.this love that started from a tiny small thing to a deep and most significant one.this love that makes me stay strong because i had you to be my strongest pillar of all.oh god,pls....... he is all that i ever need.. u knw this cos i cried to you. and only u see me in my worst situations before and i know u know this God that i nvr loved anyone as deep as this before. sheeshh!! i feel salty :( kbye
oh!! i havent meet limjingyi in ages!!! IMY buddyy!!