♥ AishahhhS ♥

.Friday, April 17, 2009 ' 12:39 AM Y

Dear Diary,

i think i shall make my blog more livelier with pics.
i know and i realised i have much pics to put here.
but im tired.
physically and mentally.
my energy's running out by the day.
and i get sleepy damn fast too.have been sleeping at 10 plus,except that today,there's too much to be surf.
i havent been able to catch up with friends life
i know i have been living in my own world.
i had to pretend to be happy and not get affected by breakups.

but now,im glad im moving on.
tired of hoping
tired of waiting
tired of losing ppl i love
tired of getting accused
tired of nagging
tired of being the one who always takes care of ppl's heart
tired of giving in
i shall be selfish now,right,passer-by?

will try to not think of him anymore

this week has been a better week,though i cried for the first 2 days.
haish..
but elly came to give us a sweet sweet surprise
atikah and me were talking abt asking her out on thursday and poof,she was there!!
hahas. COOL!!we hugged and vans just had to say
"this one confirm aishah cry.CRY!CRY!CRY!CRY!" knn!!
and alankwa did the same.tt one another cb!
hahas.and guess wat?? i reali did luh.even though my eyes were tired from crying for 1 whole period over something tt someone accused me of.haish.
anyways,we had lunch tgt.yes, LUNCH!!

meeting elly got my appetite back.im glad she came to make my day brighter after reading my entry.thank you so much elly.
i totally appreciate ur presence even though it was only for a while.

and then,went out on a bestfriend's date with dearest beloved DANBFF!!!!
godknows how much i missed that boy.
and i swear i chatted a lot.
too much things to tell him and i didn let him sleep even though we were already on our way to T1.
'u talk alot arh today.i know.because u long time never see me right?" -.-
thanks arh bff!! went to the disney shop at T1 and wahhhhh!!bestnye..
byk pink luh!!!and lots of cartoons!!ahhas..
and all bff could say was 'i cant believe im in this shop'. DOINKS!
and he has one reason for being my BFF because im '4 letter word'
hahahhahs..WTF!!! -.-
ate our dinner,yes yes, my 2nd proper meal of the day.hee and headed home.
went to northpoint to find stuffs and reached home at 9.
(haish,eversince the breakup,i havent been wanting to reach home early :/ )

wed had MIOO full dress rehearsal.damn it.it was so goddamnlong and i was falling asleep.
even though i was sitting down.eyes still pain from crying the previous night.
but that was the last cry.last bad cry i ever had.cos up till now,i havent cried yet.
attended the council investiture since friends were there.
atikah,wan,rizal,syed,hafiz and many many more.
oh ya,not forgetting ngeechen!!!hahhas..
catch up with him and his life and woah,cant be bothered to say anything.he's still the same kental yet ridiculous guy tt everyone knows.huakk!
sat down,talking with syed and syikin and joy for a while before changing for rehearsal.
rehearsal ended at 5 plus with lots and lots of waiting.haish
went home with yaya and mami and su and we lepak-ed infront of bch to eat our dinner.
heh.'memorable'.

and today,the most memorable day of the week!
heeeee..
had mini-match for our touch rugby.not that we won but its good that my team plays non-contact.hee.
got to catch up with zai
meet up with fizah and syed at cwp,with atikah and wan.
heh.not the complete clique but at least,better than nothing.
ate our dinner at ljs and and and...
jengjengjeng!!
when i turned behind after hearing one of them ask,is tt utha?
i immediately screamed!
yes,as in SCREAM!!!BIG TIME SCREAMMMMMMMMM!!

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!! shit,i sound dramatic!

and the whole of ljs and the public was looking at me as i hugged utha while jumping and shahrin too.got to know malcolm and izwan.and i swear malcolm is such an ASS!!hahas.
i die if he ever get to come across my blog cos he'll find me to settle scores with me.heh.wtv
and then ama came.weee..i missed her too.
went home at 7 plus cos dah ter-lepak and there's still school tmr.
send the clique off to mrt and i decided to bus-ed down to yishun.but i think i missed the bus
according to my potek eyes,heh :P
so i took 161,along with ama,rin and malcolm.
and malcolm was being such an irritating ass,cos he made me shout so much in the bus.
but i still love his sepet eyes!!hahhahas.
i feel like digging them out :P and feed them to some fish!!
ahahhas..k,that was a joke.no hard feelings. :)

i think i should just go and head for the bed now.
im not sure if im gg home with that someone cos that someone is not planning anything yet.
doinks!thank god i didn quarrel with him cos of gg home with each other issues.
doinks betul!!
but its ok.at least that someone is opening up to me,which i hope is soon cos i got lots to tell that someone.that someone who used to be my best friend.doinks you luh,belo!

anyways,there's school tmr.may b staying back to study alone.k bbye