.Monday, December 15, 2008 ' 2:45 PM Y
Dear Diary,
firstly, happy 49th birthday, Pa!! :) lovelovelove you!!!
aishah harap appa dipanjangkan usia and dimurahkan rezeki.
and pls stop smoking daddy.it's bad ur health.VERY BAD!! but on the other hand, ur not smoking tt much. so,quit soon, daddyloves :)
anyhoots,was online ytd and this one sunshine-loves@hotmail.com girl pm-ed me on msn.
like wtf!! im glad god was with me throughout tt conversation.
and i forgive you for jumping to conclusions.
u obviously do not know me well enough to throw accusations at me like tt.
previous dedication was deleted cos some ppl just dun understand simple english when they are in the same school as me! PS:im not calling you stupid.
it's ppl like that sunshine-loves who do not noe me AT ALL who are such gossip-mongers.
they tend to ASSUME and just think wtv they like, when seeing is not always believing.
you dunno the shits that i've gone thru for the past months,since last year.
and so, by reading my PUBLIC blog, u ASSUMED you know EVERYTHING when in reality & ACTUAL FACT, YOU DUNNO!! the heartbreaks that i've went thru,d tears that i've shed, u will never understand.call me wtv u want.but im telling you,i got over ur previous hate tags in gf's blog.so no other words can bring me down,like yours.i know very well, that BGFS are there for me.they were the ones who stood by me throughout my tough times.NOT YOU! so you wont know. but tt's why i forgive you.call me a flirt but i dun see myself as one.i dun think it's wrong to have many guy friends.it's not as if im always with them.since ur in the same school as me,im sure you have eyes to see that im always with elly and atikah.so like i said, OPEN YOUR EYES WIDER!! because of ppl like you,rumours are created.so if u ever wan to hurl accusations at me,check your sources first.dun judge ppl superficially!and abt me wanting to hurt your friend.i can assure you and everyone that i didn have the intention to hurt her.in this complicated -ship we had,the three of us got hurt.so dun push all the blame to me.
and lastly, u dunno what love is. for the first time in my whole entire life, this is the first time that i heard someone says they wan to break someone's relationship up!WTF la sunshine-loves!have you ever heard of retribution?? how would you feel if someone wants to break you up with your beloved bf? how would you react?pissed off?yes! then you'd better stop having that thoughts cos im sure you wouldn want the whole world to think of you as a third party.but i doubt they'll break up, babe.not with you being a third party,so perish that disgusting thoughts of yours.just think of god.you're making a grave mistake just by confronting me and then hurling accusations at me and false rumours at me(i have friends from that stream you said and i know i can trust them with my whole life!so dun be such a know-it-all!)and having that disguting thoughts to break bbgf and her bf up.
anyhoots, like i said i forgive you and pardon me for my vulgarities.
i'll be on hiatus this week due to many outings that im having.
and it's only with one guy and all girls!!!
im excited to meet them!! the gfs!!
and and atikah, did wan tell you ur goodbye msg almost made me cry? hahas.
outing after ur back from KL! and update ur blog la,makcik!!
and wan bought me souvenir from KL too!! hahas.upon reaching singapore, the bgf called me.hahahahas. i so know u miss me la, wan!! hahs..see you soon!! :)
BBGF: just ignore her. you know she cant do anything to both of you.i pray to god that everything's gonna be fine! just fine and you'll be happy :) :) lovelovelove you <3
ellyBGF:wtv happens,u know i'll be here listening to you. :) so no worries.even if im busy,i'll still spare some time for you,BGF!! study date soon? im lost with the Econs notes :P lovelovelove you too <3
atikahBGF!!!!: can u cut short ur hols?!?!? hahahs.. do econs with me!!! :P heh. && insyaallah,we'll get well from you know wat soon :) hahas.i promise.and you'd better dun break your word. lovelovelove you too <3
not forgetting,newfriend,kaseh :): be strong babe! i'll chat with you soon! :)
anyhoots, gtg. :P housework is calling me :/
and you,if you noticed,ytd was the nicest chats i've ever had with you ^-^
no one is perfect. that's why ppl either like and love you for it or they dislike and hate you for it.
as for me,all im hoping is that the love that my family,BGFS and other friends shower upon me stays strong. and i know god loves me too.i know he wants me to move on and learn from my lessons. thank you,god. i love you too :)